Pictures That Inspire Me To Create Beautiful Music... Plus My favorite Jazz song By the Great Duke Ellington "Take The A Train"

The Best Kept Secret

For so many years... i have been the answer to so many prayers...and touched many lives...

But

I've never got the appreciation that i deserved... Now don't get me wrong..I'm not writing this to complain ... I'm just keeping it REAL... (thanks best friend)


Here is a story:

Once upon a time there was 3 dudes... they were close friends.. they practically did everything together.... So one day they was chilling at the house.. and they were really hungry... they didn't know what they wanted to eat.... so they went to a restaurant... They usually get fast food but they decided to go somewhere different.... so they're at the restaurant... bugging out like they always do... until one of them... stopped in the middle of their sentence... he was captured by the aura of this BEAUTIFUL server.... As she did her job... he just couldn't keep his eyes off of her... And when she was in the vicinity.. He could hear her singing in a low tone... Now this guy .... Eat, Sleeps, and breath music... and to know that she's a musician herself was mind blowing.... So after he came out of his daze.... his friends encouraged him to call her over...So he did just that..She looked so cute in her uniform... with her huge brown eyes... and fly swagg...he looked at her and asked the million dollar question.... " Hey , I heard you singing.. Can you sing for me?".. She had the cutest puzzled look on her face..and she said " Sure".... He was so intrigued by the smooth texture of her voice... he was instantly mesmerized... so they switched numbers...(He Bagged Her.. lol ).... they talked every now and again... him and his friends would visited her ....often(lol) ... he sporadically thought about her throughout the day ... and he came to the conclusion that .... he really wanted to show her the more positive side of life..... but she wasn't trying to hear it at the time .... because she was going through some very negative things in her personal life... and despite how she viewed life at that time... He stood by her side every step of the way... When ever she needed him... all she had to do was call ... and he was right there... things started getting weird when... He realized he had feelings for her.. His emotions consumed him like a tidal wave...and he didn't know what to do....so he went to the people he thought would give him the best advice on this situation...... "his boys"... the dudes he thought he can trust with his life.... turned out to be the same dudes..... that stabbed him in the back.. by attempting to sabotage the wonderful friendship that him and that wonderful young lady was building...he was so hurt and confused that he cut off .... his fake ass boys ... and the young lady.... because he couldn't fathom why all of this negativity was surrounding him... so he shut down for a while... One day he got a random phone from the young lady ...and she basically explained everything that happened... after their conversation... they made the decision to be friends... it was only one problem... He NEVER told her how he really felt about her... There is a STRONG possibility that she had an idea.. because she made it very clear that she DOES NOT want to be in a relationship... lol and he was cool with that ... so all of those feelings he had for her never really got dealt with... Just suppressed because he didn't want to come off a certain way... So months went by and they've gotten very close... she came to the conclusion that she wanted him to be her Best Friend... he thought that would be a good idea.... so they have been best friends since that day... they have the most Unique relationship ever... Now that her music career is about to blow up like Dynamite.....lol ... she doesn't really have time for him like she use to.... and he totally understand....


I know what you are thinking now...... What the hell is the Best Kept Secret ????


Right ???


Well the whole point of a secert is not to tell anyone... So I guess you will never Know..... LMAO !!!

The Light At The End Of The Tunnel

My soul was chained down to a cement block yet surrounded by floating devices..... right in the middle of the sea of sorrow.. no matter how bad my soul wanted to sink ... it was always something present to keep it afloat (GOD) .... this heavy cement block was basically all of the labels i allowed people to pin on me.... and for some strange reason my soul couldn't hold on any longer .. and at that moment...... i became a victim of a very fatal game of ....... tug o' war ...( better known as spiritual warfare)....

During this time....... the journey i call life ....... was as light as a room with no windows or doors.... i mean it was so dark ........that you couldn't even see your hand right in front of your face... So tell me .....can you imagine waking up to sunset? .... my world was Topsy Turvy ... an ongoing cycle of ... disappointments ... shame.... and generational insecurities...

BUT


All of the sudden ... the darkness was penetratingly exposed .......by a light that i vaguely seen at the end of the tunnel

On Sunday, January 13, 2002 my life was changed forever.... i had an experience that i will NEVER forget...... On that day ... I turned My life over to Jesus Christ.....

He Saved me... and shown me a love... that i can't get any where else... My soul burst with joy and happiness like a grenade surrounded with dynamite... and the chains that had my soul bound ... fell like confetti thrown off the empire state building...

Ever since that day i have been displaying the love of Christ .... and my life has been illuminated with his glory, love and power.... If you don't know him.. he is the BEST thing that can ever happen to you...

Because of JESUS Christ ... I am ... Who I am.... Today...

A Beautiful Strong woman ... with a purpose... a plan... and ... a DESTINY...

The Dreamcatcher Legend

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Dreams were sought by the Indians, since they valued visions to
be very sacred. The Old Ones tell that dreams do hold great
power and drift about at night before coming to the sleeping ones.
To keep the dreamer safe, the Old Ones created a special web,
the Dreamcatcher, to hang above their sleeping places.
The ancient story told by the Native Indians is that the
Dreamcatcher's hoop, with the intricate webbing at it's center,
ensures a sleep undisturbed by bad dreams.
The good dreams would take the path of the web with great
ease to its center and would float gently down the trail of
beads, and like the feather, drift down into the minds of the
sleepers below.
The bad dreams would struggle with the web and always
become entangled. The night would pass on, leaving them to
perish in the rays of the new day sun.
Hang one near you, and pleasant dreams!
"Gaa wiin daa-aangoshkigaazo ahaw enaabiyaan
gaa-inaabid."
[Translated: "You can not destroy one who has dreamed a dream like mine."]







To My Dream Catching Fellas.... Keep Up the good Work... The Sky Is The Limit ...Much Love...

♥ Nikki

In The Beginning

Standing still when everything was moving around me… Being bound when

everybody else seemed so free… Walking on a beautiful beach of quicksand… Being

alone in a room full of people… waking up to a day as dark as night…. Looking at the

world with the blindest part of sight… loving from a heart that is surrounded by ice…

to be sincerely loved would really be nice…. Those were just some of the feelings that I

experienced on a daily bases. I was confused, hurt, embarrassed and depressed.

Being a victim of your emotions is no joke... there has been nights where i only had

vi sine and a box of Kleenex... but when the sun peaked over the horizon ... i was

preparing myself for the daily performance.... the beautiful smile that covered years

and years of hurt and pain... (my Mask).... It real crazy how I interacted with people

day in and day out ... and they never cared to ask how i was feeling... all they cared

about is .... what i can do for them... or how i can make them laugh..

Its mindblowing how people channel their feelings.